This is our beautiful family,

Andy-7 Nathan-4 Caleb-9 and Claire and Kim. We love our boys and would take half a dozen more. But for now some girls would be appreciated.

New Year, new start, new beginnings

Now I know that I'm not that old, but each year that comes and goes I feel as if my life is ticking away and I look back and see what good I have done, what I have learned or who I have helped. If I look back and feel like there want much to my year that I feel as if few memories were made and few hearts were touched by me. I want to know I have left a mark I want to know I have done my best to learn and grow and teach as much as I can of the little I know. One thing I know is love I have a love for others that I consider a gift from my Father in Heaven. I'm so thankful that it is something that I can give to others and share as freely as i desire. Trust is harder but love I have much to share. LOL

Working in the home and raising three hyper boys I often feel like my job as a mom is unappreciated or noticed but I know that all I have taught them will stay in that little vault in there brain and pray it will be opened at the right times in life. I'm blessed to be able to stay home w/ our boys and that Kim works so hard to make that possible for us all. Some day I will have more titles but for now Mother and wife will do. There is much to be done hear and much to be learned but there are years ahead of us and I plan on filling this up coming year fully with knowledge, love and lots of faith.

We never have boring years and I doubt this year will be any different. Hope you all have a wonderful New year.

Count your blessings, name them one by one

I have been thinking allot lately about how I feel like so much is delt to my hand and yet I always make it through another day even on the days I desperately feel like giving up. So many hard things come this direction and yet I'm still here. Now not to be mistaken I'm not saying I can handle more. I'm saying I have truly been blessed watched over guided by my hand and pushed from behind at times I have needed it. I have been touched by the spirit at times in need and I have felt My fathers unconditional love for me. I know that I'm a child of God and I know he is kind and loving and understanding. He must be patient to have to put up w/ me and I know he loves me. I'm thankful for this knowledge.

I'm thankful for the trials and hardships I have passed through at times run through as fast as I can feeling as if I barely made it out alive. LOL Something I have learned lately and I'm sure it has not just come over night but has taken years but I know now what it is. Faith I have learned to have faith and not just want to have it but truly feel it with in me at the hardest times. I use to think it was almost a denial in a way I would block out such terrible hard things that would be happening that I was putting them aside for later to deal w/ But It wasn't at all I have learned to place them in his hands our Father in Heaven and say Father take this please and do what you will w/ it . I will follow your lead. I always wanted to have that gift I saw in others but never felt That I carried much faith of my own. Thank you for this gift.

Some times when life hits us we smile, we may cry or even run at times. Some of us find the worst or try to look for the good in all things. Some of us prepare for the worst and hope for the best. Life is hard it is not easy. if it is than your doing something wrong. LOL it isn't suppose to be easy. Perhaps simple but rarely easy.

My next thoughts are of my husband I have tried so hard to be a good mother, the best mother I could be for so long that at time I have almost forgot my best friend needs me just as much as they do. I love my husband he is a good man. he has given me so much in these last 10 years I keep hoping a a little of him will rub off onto me. LOl I'm always proud of Kim he is still the hardest working man or woman I know. accept for maybe my mother there a close tie.

remember to pull the loved in your life aside and tell them you love them and that you are blessed for knowing them. hug them if you can, if not leave a note on there pillow or in there locker or on the door, send them a card in the mail today will be over tomorrow so get moving and let them know you care.

Work hard in this life but remember to play harder, something I have had to learn. Cry when you must and yell out loud when no one is around. But smile and laugh with your family. Pray always and anywhere. Sometimes I need to get on my knees 15 times a day just to get myself through with out yelling at my children. But pray. I have learned the more I pray the more I listen for him the more I feel him the more I trust him there for I have grown in my small amount of faith. So pray. Don't force your children let them follow you they will follow it may take time and they will get distracted but lead the way don't walk behind them shoving and yelling. remember the good they do through the day and try to set aside the bad they want to please you they want to see you smile and they want to hear that you are proud of them. So tell them. :)

Life is good, and life is hard and messy but we have help.